dennis j adams

Recently, real recently, I have been wrestling with the direction the Lord is leading me in.  The great thing about this is when I wrestle like I am doing, even as I type this blog, I know it will be a good result when the “match” is over.  This time though it is really deep in my spirit-man.  It hurts and it is quite quickening all at the same time.  I find my self wanting more of God and desiring to do more for God.  I am not sure right now that I am doing what I should be doing for Him.  I look at these past several years and wonder: have I been walking parallel to what I should be doing?  In other words, it is as though I can look across a fissure and see where I should have been but yet I am at the same measure but not at the same place.  I do not expect anyone to get this but if you have been there or if you are there then you know that it is a real place.  The questions I have for God are deep and need to be addressed by Him.  Certainly “man” in his shallow wisdom and selfish character cannot direct nor answer such deep things.  Even though, I desire to call upon man for his wisdom and direction in a time like this.  I cannot reach where I think I should be but I can see it clearly and the desire is so real.  The dilemma that I face throughout this time is to learn how to get there because I know I should be there now!

“Not that I have now attained [this ideal], or have already been made perfect, but I press on to lay hold of (grasp) and make my own, that for which Christ Jesus (the Messiah) has laid hold of me and made me His own. I do not consider, brethren, that I have captured and made it my own [yet]; but one thing I do [it is my one aspiration]: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the [supreme and heavenly] prize to which God in Christ Jesus is calling us upward. So let those [of us] who are spiritually mature and full-grown have this mind and hold these convictions; and if in any respect you have a different attitude of mind, God will make that clear to you also. Only let us hold true to what we have already attained and walk and order our lives by that. ” (Philippians 3:12-16, AMP)

Peace

Dennis

All scriptures used in this blog article are The Amplified Bible, containing the Amplified Old Testament and the Amplified New Testament. 1987. La Habra, CA: The Lockman Foundation.

1. 
   steve wright said...
   10:04 am - March 8th, 2008

   Obedience is the true measure of success. You have been obedient and that is why I think you are a true man of the faith. He speaks, you listen and then obey. I have always loved that about you my brother. Yes, man at times have questioned you and even thought you may have been losing your mind but time and time again the fruit of your labor and love has shown you have in fact heard from the maker of heaven and earth. Rest my dear friend and take comfort in the fact that God is even God over the fissure that you think your on the wrong side of. He is God and He lives on both sides of the fissure.
   Peace,
   Your friend

2. 
   Jonathan Stone said...
   7:22 pm - March 8th, 2008

   I second that word from Steve, and also relate to your struggle. So I guess I’m saying keep wrestling AND start resting. Hmmm….I never noticed the word rest in wrestling before!